transnips

I’m about to start my new county job in a week & I’m trying to change my name/gender on my Social Security card / DL before I have to submit my paperwork. 

I already “legally” changed my name so that’s all lined up but now my gender is an issue! I need a physician to sign some papers saying I’m “completely transitioned” & the form is so fucked up I’m getting anxiety just thinking about the future interactions I must endure.

Fuck the govt for only allowing a physician enmeshed in a westernized healthcare system to determine what my gender is in their “professional opinion”

MY GENDER IS NOT YOUR OPINION

Gender identification is complete when I say it is, no one can determine how I identify based on their perception of my body or characteristics.

They’re basically saying you can only change your gender if you’re going to line up with the hetero gender-conforming binary they already laid out for you.

WTF DOES MY DEMEANOR HAVE TO DO W MY GENDER IDENTITY!?!

GENDER DOES NOT EQUAL SEX - I DO NOT IDENTIFY AS MALE OR FEMALE

If these fuckers get in the way of me having a smooth transition (ha) into this job I will destroy them

Any advice/help from ppl who have gone thru this process in Monterey County/ the Bay / CA before would be greatly appreciated cuz I still need a “licensed physician” that I feel safe with to sign my papers even though I am not on hormones & am still read as ‘female’ more often than not

fagageddon asked: You are so inspiring. There isn't so much info on FtX or similar as far as I can see, at the moment following your blog is really helping me while I struggle through my gender confusion so thanks for being you!

Aw you make me so happy! I’m glad anything I do can have a positive influence on someone :)

It was confusing & difficult for me growing up while figuring out my gender identity because my peers were always pushing me & policing my gender one way or another — I was too dykey/masculine to be a cis-hetero-fem girl & too flirty/faggy/femme to be a butch stud so I found myself lost in-between until I heard of the identity ‘genderqueer’ in college. Once the whole discourse & concept of fluidity & breaking binaries opened up to me then I started to hear words like FtX & transfag that could more accurately define my identities & describe how I saw myself.

Now I don’t think everyone necessarily needs to claim an identity to know themselves but for me re-naming my body has helped form communities around similar shared experience & assisted in creating my sense of self. 

Thanks for being you!

Anonymous asked: Are you f2m or m2f? You look amazing both ways. I hope it is not rude to ask.

I am usually open to this question in educational settings & w people I’m comfortable around. I’ve been a part of many panels & put on endless workshops/trainings so I’m used to talking about my gender/sexuality a lottt. My response sometimes depends on the person who’s asking tho - there’s a certain safety I feel when talking to another Queer/Trans/POC person as opposed to a cis/hetero/white person so I would appreciate a non-anon in the future :)

I must address the history & reasoning behind this question as well, QTPOC bodies are consistently exoticized & made into objects by those in privileged positions. I’m fine answering for personal reasons but it is NOT okay to invade people’s bodies to determine “what they really are” or any other similar transphobic probing. 

So back to the original question — FtM or MtF??? lol drumrollllll…. NEITHER!! If you read the basic info I have listed it says FtX which for me means I was assigned female at birth [AFAB] & desire a body that is outside of the male/female binary (hence the X). I don’t want to pass as anything but a transfag dyke & I tend to do fairly well w this considering I am post-op chest surgery, not on hormones, and I can be quite the Queen even when I’m studded out to the extreme.